The cool air that marks the end of summer brushes up against our skin as we sit around the campfire. Sabrina is sitting next to Sapphire and they are holding hands to keep each other warm. I sit on the other side of the campfire trying to hold a brief conversation with the new guy that I am seeing, but I can't ignore the deep feeling of dread gnawing through my stomach.
"Annie, are you okay?" He asks.
"Yeah, I'm fine. Just have some stuff going through my mind," I tell him.
I don't mention that the stuff going through my mind pertains to the two people sitting across from us. I don't mention that I feel as if the world as I know it is crumbling. It's a funny feeling when your friend starts dating someone new especially when that person is another woman.
The problem is not that I don't like Sabrina. She is a grade one teacher and has a personality wild enough to match her unruly, reddish blonde hair. She is extremely bubbly, outgoing (just like Sapphire and I) and always offers to buy the alcohol when we hang out. I actually think that she is a great friend. I would love for the three of us to be best friends - but we aren't because her and Sapphire are more. And I don't like it. This means that not only can they bond over the typical girl stuff that Sapphire and I bond over, but also that she can give Sapphire things that I can't. Just the thought of this makes me feel like I am being demoted from our friendship. I wish there was an easy way to solve this problem but there isn’t.
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